New Year's Resolutions...

Yup, you read that right. New Year's Resolutions is the title you see. Here's the deal, in the past you've heard me say I don't really like making them. I don't! It always seems like a bandwagon kind of thing. If you want it do it. I say this knowing full well that I'm a slacker as well and terribly forgetful. See where I'm going with this?

When my home away from home opened back in December they had these great little new year resolution cards. I looked at them and was all set to walk by it when I realized what was on it, a $5 coupon. Earthfare, you totally know the way to my heart. So I fill one out and I completely forget about it... that is until it arrived in the mail this past week.

There it is. My goal is essentially activity once a week. Lately, I've been feeling like I'm failing myself. I like group workouts and I like yoga, but it takes quite a bit for me to get to my mat or get to my step. So I've missed a few classes, and haven't been in what feels like forever. However, when I saw my card from earthfare I happened to have my planner in front of me and thought let's check in. Let's see how I've really done. For the month of June I planned and completed some activity only 8 different times. :) Except, that puts me at roughly 2 times a week!!

I feel like this is the kind of thing I need to do more often. Really checking in with facts and seeing where I am. What about you? Do you find that reality is sometimes a little different than what you might have imagined?

Combat

This is the post I started writing on June 10th... yup, it's a little delayed.

On most days, I feel great about my body. I really do, sure there are things that I would like to be slightly different. However on the whole I'm pretty pleased with overall presentation that is me. If you're around me you eventually hear about the things that bother me. You may not hear the reverse because honestly it sounds a little conceited to my ears. :/

Except here is the thing, I'm raising a little girl (though I suspect I might still feel the same way if it were a boy). I don't want her to be apart of the cadre of young girls who learn both from society and their representations at home that they shouldn't be happy with their bodies. She is getting older and become more aware of what I do and say. She's a little sponge and she is even more so if she has my natural inclination toward people watching. So I worry that some of my personal lamentations (the ones that make it out of my head) will negatively affect her. I worry that she will see me and I'm not happy with myself, then why should she be. I know.... it's friday I should be contemplating weekend plans.

So I'm working on cutting back my verbal complaints in general. Of course complaining about things gets me nowhere. My hope is that when I'm feeling this way, I can schedule a work out in somewhere. Whether it's doing the Beyonce workout or actually scheduling some time at the gym. Either way I don't want to continue to mentally beat myself up about the small things that I can change.